For the past several days I’ve been admiring the beautiful photos of serenity being posted by others in response to the DP Weekly Photo Theme. There have been gorgeous sunrises, sunsets, landscapes, and sleeping furry friends.
…. but I’m not feeling the serenity. In fact, I might go as far as to call this the anti-serene month.
Lately, it seems like all my projects have me on edge … much like watching the traffic circle around the Arc de Triomphe in Paris. I have so many different things I’m juggling right now, I often find that the tension is building up as if waiting for that inevitable collision to occur.
I have this unsettling sense that things aren’t quite right … that same apprehension that every parent of young children recognizes when they suddenly realize the house is too quiet. That’s usually a good indication that there is some kind of mischief in progress.
What has me feeling so upside-down? It would be my 2015 plan to try 52 new things.
I started off this initiative with wild enthusiasm and high expectations, but 3 weeks into the new year and reality has set in. This is not going to be easy.
I started off with a few new things that are not one-offs … like going to the gym 3 times a week to do yoga and strength training. Last year’s myopic focus on running was considerably easier. I’ve recently discovered a plot by certain body parts – instigated by my glutes and triceps – to overthrow the ruling brain.
At the same time, nothing has gone smoothly according to plan. It’s like discovering that my highly anticipated adventure now has an unsettling twist in it. I keep picturing scary biker dude I was paired with for a one mile freefall in a 10,000 foot tandem jump from an airplane.
It’s all fun and excitement until he casually announces that if anything goes wrong, he’s going to save his own sorry ass and unclip me on the way down. Riiiight – all I can do is smile bravely and hope for the best.
In the past 3 weeks, there have been so many cancellations, failed starts, missteps, and generally things not turning out quite the way I thought they would.
Could that the fiery little planet of Mercury in Retrograde be responsible?
In the meantime, this tenacious little train is going to keep on chugging and pray that the grade will soon level out.
I’m hoping that serenity is just around the next corner.