This past week I’ve been suffocating under a heavy mantle of grief. On Monday I had learned I lost a friend of over 30 years in a car accident.
Since I received the news, time has become a fuzzy thing. It seemed to slow down to a snail’s pace and then race at a dizzying speed.
I found myself lost in thoughts of …. nothing. I grieved for my friend, his wife, and son. I grieved for lost opportunity and the unfairness of life.
I struggled with sadness and anger in unequal amounts as waves of one or the other crashed over me when I least expected it.
This morning I took a long walk at the lake and while I contemplated the beauty of nature, I was reminded that – like fear – we can’t let grief overwhelm us. We have to acknowledge it and then let it go … because if we don’t, it will suffocate us.