Musings On A Rainy Day

So far, this year has been full of various trips, falls, misses, and failures – some of them figurative, many of them literal.  A few of them I’ve talked about here, but most of them I haven’t.

There has been one drama in my life that’s been playing out for months now and involves my husband’s health.  He’s been fighting a recurring problem that simply won’t go away and finally it escalated into a full-blown crisis.

Three trips to the ER in 3 days has been very stressful.  It’s weighed heavily on both of us that this might be that of which we mustn’t ever speak … for fear of making it real.

I’m mentioning this only because I don’t often write about deeply personal stuff – with the notable exception of the pity party I was throwing myself all summer.

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I compartmentalize my life into the stuff I talk about and that which I prefer to keep private – often even from family and friends.  “Opening up” is not something I do casually.  Thought and care is usually involved.

I think most of us have this private side in varying degrees, especially if we’re a self-proclaimed introvert.  There are those of us who are more comfortable listening and observing rather than talking … those of us who like the written word because it provides us with time to reflect on what we want to say, and how we want to say it.

In the written word, I can be far more clever and insightful than I ever am on any given day “in the real world”.

It’s a bit of a paradox that the blogging world attracts people like us who are usually quiet and comfortable blending into the background, but with a deep need to express ourselves and whatever our chosen form of creativity might be.

On one hand, we may have difficulty with self-expression within our limited circle of family and friends, but we’re prepared to toss it out to the world-at-large. There is usually that small moment of terror as we hit the ‘Publish’ button.  We obsess about whether this time we shared a little too much.

In case you’re wondering, I’m not really going anywhere with this post.  It truly is a random musing, most likely the product of too much worry and too little sleep.

It’s likely I’m going to continue filtering my world of self-doubts, insecurities, and various neuroses … but I do know that this blogging community is a good place for people who need to share – even if that sharing is not the full story.

And yes – Gilles is ok.

This post was inspired by Photos by Emilio.  Read his story here.

About Joanne Sisco

Retired but not idle. Life is an adventure - I plan to continue to embrace it.
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113 Responses to Musings On A Rainy Day

  1. Mama Cormier says:

    I also missed this post when it first came out. I too, have been going through a very stressful time with my husband’s health since May (never mind all the other things that he’s been through the last 5 years). October was also very busy with fun things like birthdays but I wasn’t able to keep up with my emails. I’m glad to hear that Gilles is okay and hopefully your health issues will sort themselves out as well. The year of the monkey is almost over and hopefully the next year will be better for your whole family.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Thank you. This is one of those years I’ll be happy to put behind me!
      Hopefully your husband’s health is getting better. It is stressful being a care-giver … not only dealing with the additional work load, but also trying to maintain a positive outlook for their benefit. Good luck to you too!!

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  2. Mrs. P says:

    OMG…this has been a terrible year and I haven’t even read today’s post! I’m glad Giles is okay! Your words throughout this post rang true to me, especially the need to blog…to communicate. I actually can share thoughts one on one but socializing at a party…not so much. In fact, I avoid them.

    It’s funny you mention the Year of the Monkey again. It has been a rough year for me as wel…not in the way yours has been. My life in the main is drama free…this year has been the exception…though it’s not my drama, it’s someone else’s but I am the needed component to bring order into the chaos.

    We recently had a hurricane which pretty much quarantined us for a few days. A last minute threat of 7-12 foot surge had me scrambling to put as many precious papers and keepsakes in plastic bags and on high shelves. As I was doing this I saw all of my projects and goals for the year, abandoned…not by my choice but because I was helping others and had allowed myself to fall into the role of “go to girl”. As soon as I got out of quarantine…I mad a promise to myself to take back my life. So far..so good! 😉

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      It’s funny how we can look back on some years and see a trend in the year and how it’s affected us.
      Sorry to hear the Monkey has been stirring things up for you too. Let’s hope we see a lot more stability in the months ahead!

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  3. I’m sorry I missed this when you posted it. I missed it mainly because of my own package of small worries that’s made some things seem too hard or just one thing too many to deal with. I’m sorry you’ve been carrying all that worry but I’m glad to know you out here in the land of introverts who need to say something. Funny how we find it a safer place to say it than the real world. Hugs to you. xxx

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Thanks Heather. Sorry to hear you are struggling with your own demons. I hope you are seeing your way out of it.
      I can honestly say that in spite of the most recent hiccup with Misha, things are starting to settle down. I really hope I haven’t just jinxed myself again 😉

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  5. loisajay says:

    Oh my gosh, Joanne–you could have put a caveat at the end of this post: “This is by me and Lois.” You have truly nailed exactly how I feel about public/private conversations. Only 4 people at work know why I was ‘mysteriously’ gone from the office for 6 months. But my coworkers know that I am very private so upon my return to work, I received tons of hugs and absolutely no questions. My kind of people! Anyhow, I hope you are doing better (I am going to catch up on your posts) and I am glad Gilles is OK. That is wonderful. And congrats on your son’s engagement! I am reading backward, but that just made me smile. Love to you.

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  6. NancyTex says:

    So relieved to here hubby is okay. xoxo

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  7. treerabold says:

    I am glad to hear Gilles is doing better. I hope his healing continues.

    I understand not wanting to share personal “stuff.” I share a lot on Facebook and WordPress…but choose not to share those intimate and personal moments that are “too” personal.
    I also agree that this blogging community is supportive and uplifting. I am honored to call many fellow bloggers (most of whom i will never meet) friend. And you have been one of the most supportive people I have had the honor of meeting here in the cyber world of blogs.

    Best wishes to you and your family

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  8. Su Leslie says:

    Oh Joanne; I’m so sorry to read about Gilles’ health worries. I hope he continues to get better. I understand your balancing act around sharing personal stuff; I feel the same way. But equally, one of the things I really like about blogging is the community of people who invariably offer comfort and support. And unlike friends in the physical world, this comfort usually comes without an agenda — however well-meant. Thinking of you, and wishing your whole family good health and good times ahead.

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  9. So glad Giles is ok! How stressful for you both. I hope he continues to strengthen and get well. I know what you mean about keeping some things private Joanne. Blogging is such a great way to be expressive but then how much do we say. I liked your ramble and musings. I appreciate the words you type and the time you take to write them and share them with me x

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  10. Suvi says:

    Many hugs Joanne, I’m sorry about the frightening times you’ve had. I am glad to hear that hubby is doing better. 💕💕 It took me many years to have the courage to blog with my real name and face. These days I don’t really care that much. 😂

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  11. Ally Bean says:

    I understand your reluctance to share all of your life with the world. I’ve always blogged under a pseudonym so that I am very clear about what I share online as Ally Bean– and what I keep to myself. I’m glad that your husband is okay, and hope that future posts find you both happy and fit.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Thanks Ally.

      I had toyed with the idea of blogging under a pseudonym and then decided I have enough trouble being one person let alone two 😉

      We have the common need to share, and what’s interesting to me is that we find different ways to express ourselves and have varying lines in the sand 🙂

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  12. reocochran says:

    Okay, the ending made me breathe a big sigh of relief. But then I reread this and thought, she still doesn’t want to reveal something serious: yet!
    Joanne, hoping you know we value your reticence and your well chosen words. We count on your equanimity. I value your compliment or your serious thoughts. Hugs! xo

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Your comment made me smile. I have a friend who also thinks I hiding something 😉

      I’m not. We simply don’t know what’s made him sick. He’s now in that hell of endless tests to find the underlying case.

      Thank you for continuing support and kind words. I always appreciate them -xx

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  13. Rebekah M says:

    I can so relate to this post … like most of the others. I’m also a self proclaimed introvert … ever since I watched a video (TED) about a year ago. I’ve even forgotten the woman’s name, but she was good.

    Anyway … at times, I’ve felt like writing more personal posts, and my experiences from that have always been positive. It’s as if when you open up about something, many people can relate — like here and now — and the comments become more … ‘involved’ (in lack of better word), and heartfelt.

    If I’d had a totally anonymous blog, so that nobody would have known who I was or where I lived, I think I would write a lot more of those ‘personal style’ posts, about stuff I’d hardly share with close friends. That’s probably the same phenomenon that makes people share their lives stories with strangers on trains — they know they’ll never see them again 🙂

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      I was talking to a friend yesterday and she used the exact same example of strangers on a train.
      This need we have to connect with others and share our joys and sadness is so strong. Quite frankly, it fascinates me even as I am embroiled in it myself.

      I too have thought of a completely anonymous blog to wallow in soul-cleansing writing.
      … but I don’t. Apparently there is only so far this introvert is prepared to go 🙂

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  14. Okay, so I’ve only recently started reading your blog, Joanne, but this post really resonated with me for deeply personal reasons. I was very glad to hear that your husband is okay.

    Susan A Eames at
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  15. Donna says:

    This is a very heartrending and insightful post, Joanne. The comments also add to the depth (you have built up a great circle of readers). Thanks for sharing at such a personal level. I am glad to hear that Giles is okay. Sending positive ‘blogosphere’ vibes his way.

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  16. sandmanstwin says:

    Best wishes to you and your family Joanne.
    I’m recovering from a work related breakdown and have the love and support of my wife, Susan, to thank for getting me many miles along recovery’s road. We’ve only been married 26 years (so are mere amateurs compared to Toronto’s finest) but am convinced that long bond has helped hugely. Good luck to you both.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Sorry to hear that you too have been on a roller coaster ride. My best wishes to you too.

      My husband has often said that we need only one really good friend in life to make the world feel like a better place. It seems to me you are one of the lucky ones who managed to marry your’s 🙂

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  17. petakaplan says:

    Glad to hear your husband is okay. Bad health news is so very scary.

    It is an interesting topic you bring up. My mother cringes at the fact that I write a blog at all…she is so private that she cannot imagine “exposing” herself to the world. She has occasionally criticized me for being too open and sharing too much. I think part of the point of being an artist or a writer is that you stand “naked before your audience.” If it’s personal it’s usually more powerful,

    Here’s to good health!
    Peta

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Peta, I’m endlessly fascinated by our need to share. Some people – like your mom – suppress it, but I do think it’s an instinct.
      I like your description of “naked before your audience”. That’s a great way of describing how to feels to expose your feelings!
      To good health!

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  18. Sue Slaght says:

    So relieved to hear Gilles is all right! I can only imagine the worry for both of you and appreciate that since he is so fit that this is an extra nasty surprise. Whether coincidence or not who knows that you were forced to be home at this time. Let’s just say thank goodness you were.

    What to share on the blog. Such a personal choice. As you know I’m an extrovert so basically I blog as I live. I’m pretty cautious with people in our lives other than Dave and I. I have found such great support and friendship including yours here in the blogosphere. I really do believe there is no right or wrong. Clearly by the writ pain I developed scrolling down to the end of the comments your support system here is huge and I think that says it all. You keep doing as you are doing. Count me in as one you cant shake off your ankle. 🙂

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      The image of me trying to shake you off my ankle made me laugh out loud 😀

      When mere mortals get sick, it’s bad enough. When someone like Gilles who is extremely fit and health-conscious gets sick, it seems so much worse.
      Mind you a raging, out-of-control infection, highly resistant to antibiotics isn’t a good case scenario for anyone.

      What I was really pondering in my musing wasn’t the *what* to share, but rather the actual compulsion we have to share at all … especially for introverts who by nature don’t share easily.
      It seems that everyone – even introverts – ultimately have an instinct to reach out and connect with people. To share the good news and the bad.
      Of course what makes it truly wonderful is that the blogging community embraces us back ❤

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      • Sue Slaght says:

        Perhaps that is what draws so many to blogging. This natural compulsion as you say. The support and friendships that have accompanied the blog is something I never would have dreamed of. So grateful for that.
        Hoping Gilles is behaving and listening to orders for recovering. Hoping you too are able to breathe easy. Hugs and love xoxo

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  19. I think it was back in February (not sure) when you wrote about 2016 being the Year of the Monkey and mentioned what upheavals you’ve suffered in past Monkey years….You really weren’t kidding, were you? I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling again in this Monkey Year and again with someone close to you have such huge health issues! I also know how hard it is to be the non-hurting one and to have to sit there and be able to do nothing when someone you love is down. And boy, when I said there had to be a reason that trip to Thailand came undone I certainly didn’t foresee something like this! But thank goodness you are there and able to be there for Gilles and thank goodness Gilles is home where he can be assured of good care! Taking stock of small blessings!

    Concerning those conflicting needs you speak of to share but to maintain private thoughts….I think so much has been put on us by society and thus by ourselves to be independent and to “take care of our own” that we now view sharing emotions, health issues, etc. as counter to what’s acceptable. But you know, if you think about it, modern medicine didn’t get where it is today by people not sharing, and social groups like AA and that HIV Bike Rally you were involved in didn’t come to be because people kept things to themselves.

    A long long time ago the saying came up that no man is an island…..I think that’s the thing….we NEED other people, otherwise why would we marry, make friends, or have children? Plus, the very existence of social media says that we have a need to be heard and a need for validation from other people and oh how much we learn via social media! Seems like sometimes with things we have to build the road as far as we can and when we’re done we find out we’ve built a road that doubles back to exactly where we started, eh?

    Sending love and good wishes to both you and Gilles and hoping this 2016 Monkey gets a little more friendly from here on out! 🙂

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    • P.S. Do I get the prize for longest comment ever? Sorry….should’ve made a post on my own site! LOL.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Oh Torrie – THANK YOU!! You actually got what I was trying to say … and apparently not doing it very well.
      I was musing on the fact that we seem to have a compulsion to connect with people even in direct contradiction to our instinct for privacy.

      I suspect even those who don’t, or feel they can’t, share their world, REALLY WANT TO … but don’t know how.

      … and I agree with your comment that the very existence of all the forms of social media and its popularity is proof that there is an overwhelming need for validation from others … whether it’s because we need acceptance, empathy, or perhaps just narcissism.

      Yes, this Monkey Year has been flinging a lot of poop around. Hopefully we’ve now seen the worst of it and there aren’t any more ugly surprises ahead.

      Big hugs, my friend.

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  20. I feel the same way. I am so protective over my privacy but I seem to open up more and more about my life -our life. Sometimes I fear I share too much, other days I think I am not sharing enough.

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  21. Sending prayers and warm thoughts your way. So glad Gilles is OK.
    xoxo

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  22. Margie in Toronto says:

    So glad to hear that your husband is now doing better. 2016 has certainly been one of those “challenging” years for many – it sometimes does seem as though there’s “something in the stars”. I hope that you can now breathe a bit easier and get some much needed sleep.
    I can certainly relate to your introverts quote – in fact I’d love to have it carved/painted/embroidered and mounted in my home! I am the shoulder that everyone leans on – and happy to do so – but I think many friends would be quite a bit surprised at some of the things I don’t share. I’m definitely one of those “stiff upper lip/keep calm and carry on” types.
    But it is nice to know that others are there – if not to share the burden – then at least to offer sympathy and comfort. I hope that this is a better week for you and your husband.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      So true, Margie. It’s what we don’t share that can be the most defining. The fact that we have a human instinct to share and reach out to others – even when our private self is uncomfortable with the idea – is most interesting.

      It certainly has been a most challenging year in so many ways. Let’s hope the worst is behind us now!

      As always, Margie, thanks for visiting and sharing your thoughts 🙂

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  23. bikerchick57 says:

    You had me worried until the end of your post. Thank God Gilles is okay!

    Whether an introvert or extrovert, I think most bloggers keep some personal things out of their posts (I do, but I’m not telling) because it’s too painful or too personal or we simply don’t want the world to know “everything.” Bloggers have to write what is comfortable for them to share, not what the Nosy Josie’s of the world want to know.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      I guess my point was that it’s such an interesting paradox. WHY do we have this compulsion to share while on the other hand we have this deep instinct for privacy?
      Some of us blog as ourselves, some under an alias … but the compulsion is still the same. If you try and explain it to someone who doesn’t blog , you can’t.

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  24. It is as you say: “…we may have difficulty with self-expression within our limited circle of family and friends, but we’re prepared to toss it out to the world-at-large.” That’s why this is such an exhilarating thing to do.

    Sending much love to you and yours.

    Also – we shall take over, reluctantly, when all else fails. And the moment has never felt closer.

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  25. Debbie H says:

    I’m sorry to hear this Joanne and hope things start looking up soon. It’s good sometime to just write randomly as we think. All the best!

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  26. Joanne, I’m so sorry it has been such a tough year for you. Glad to hear your husband is doing better, I’m sure it was frightening for you. I’ve been curious about your own recovery, you haven’t mentioned it much lately. I’m sending lots of positive energy your way, and hoping better days await you. How lovely to have this community of friends. Karen

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      That is exactly right, Karen! This is an amazing community of friends ❤
      Try explaining that one to a non-blogger!

      Thanks for asking about me – much appreciated. My collarbone is still healing and I have a followup x-ray in about a month. I have some dos and don'ts I have to be mindful of, but for the most part, my activity level is more or less back to normal.
      The good news is that bones do heal – they just might take a while 🙂

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  27. joey says:

    I relate totally.
    I blog openly and candidly about a lot of things, but my personal problems, the ones that burden me, I seldom even mention them, and certainly not in a way that expresses their impact. Now and again I’ll spill a bit in comments on others’ blogs.
    I don’t really like to talk about the hard things, lest they become real, as you wrote. Writing them is easier, but I vow not to write from pain on my blog, because it’s intended to be humorous, so if I can’t spin it to make people laugh, I stay quiet. I find it’s easier to write about much later. Later later, when we can look back and glean some hindsight and wisdom that we couldn’t see at the time.

    I’m glad Gilles is okay and certainly glad you felt you could ramble to us 🙂

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Joey, you are one of the bloggers I follow who shares really well. I love your style and although I had never tried to define why, I think you hit it on the head here …it’s not just a rant or personal share – it’s a message in a humorous wrapper.

      I think I have 2 significant character flaws. I take everything personally and I have trouble laughing at myself. These are things I have to work really hard at and blogging has helped me with that.

      When I’m in a lot of emotional pain, writing is very cathartic … but it stays private. Deeply private. And later I can throw it away.

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  28. I’m so glad to hear your Gilles is on the mend and I hope he gets stronger everyday, and makes a full recovery!
    I can relate to how hard this must be for him as my He-Man has always been very active and athletic. When he’s been sick or injured it’s pretty tough for him to be down.

    Sending lots of hugs, and positive thoughts for you both.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Thanks for the positive thoughts.
      You are exactly right – it seems to be harder to see someone sick or injured who is normally the picture of health and fitness. That’s not the lens we get to see them through very often, so it feels so very wrong.

      Hopefully we can all get to enjoy good health for a long time!!

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  29. Yikes, Joanne… I hope both of you are doing better! I’m so glad you weren’t a world away on your trip when this happened. I don’t share a lot of the personal stuff either, but we do have quite a nice community of people who care about each other on the blogosphere (funny, I felt comfortable sharing news of my recent fall on my blog, but not on Facebook). Take good care of yourself and your husband – I’m so happy to hear that he is doing better. ❤

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  30. Nancy says:

    Firstly, I’m very glad to hear your husband is ok and I’m sorry that it has been such a stressful time for you two. Secondly, as a fellow introvert, I totally get what you are saying. I decided when I started my blog that it was going to be my “happy place” where, for the most part, I share only the sunnier side of my life. This of course does not represent all of who I am but it’s what I am comfortable putting on social media. I am always amazed at some of the things people post on FB, incredibly personal things that I read and then think “What am I suppose to do with that!?!”😳 I guess we all have our own way of sharing and expressing and that’s ok.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      LOL – I’ve encountered some of those shares too. Awkward.

      I’m a believer that we tend to get more of what we focus on. It seems to me then, the obvious thing to do is to focus on all the wonderful stuff around us. Yeah – Pollyanna. I know.
      … but for the most part, it works. Except once in a while we trip and fall, then it can be really cathartic to write about it.

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  31. Relax... says:

    Not the best 2016 you could’ve had, but you’re here and Gilles is ok. We’ll take it! There are times I hit “Publish” and my heart races for a while and I end up shaking. Hence, I think I’ve said or shared too much, but then someone comments, and understands, and there you go — I live to do it all over again sometime, lol.

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  32. Oh, my friend, how stressful. I can relate to your filtering between the “real” world and this other “real” world. I’m glad that you feel comfortable sharing when the time feels right, and I hope you also feel the real support and well wishes that come your way from the people out here who share many of your days. I’m relieved to hear that Gilles is okay and am sending beams of love and light your way. ❤

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  33. Purpleanais says:

    Dear Joanne, I’m so sorry you and your husband have gone through such worry.
    I completely understand where you’re coming from, being an introvert myself (we’re both INFJ, as you know) I do pick and choose what I decide to share on my blog. Although I do sometimes share *some* deep inner thoughts or feelings because I simply have to write about them, there aren’t really any *real* identifying information about me on the blog. It’s a weird mix of being very open at times and closely guarded the rest of it. It’s what us introverts are like 🙂
    I do hope you get some sleep – sending hugs xo

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  34. I have one word for you:C.l.e.v.e.r. 😀 😀 😀 You got me.

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  35. Here I am reading along, relating to everything you said, hoping your husband is doing better and then read “Introverts Unite …. Separately. In Your Own Homes” and burst out laughing out loud. Oh my gosh, but if that isn’t the best thing I’ve ever heard to describe us introverts. Personal or not so personal – your choice, but all your blogging friends will keep reading and supporting. 🙂

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  36. Sending hugs… praying for a good outcome. ❤️

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  37. Joe says:

    And my best wishes to Gilles for a speedy recovery Joanne.

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  38. Joe says:

    I think what you say is very true for most people who blog Joanne but I must be the exception to that. My wife always says I could talk the bark off a tree 😀 I think Emilio is the Life of the party. he just doesn’t realize it yet !

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      I’ve never heard that expression before to talk the bark off a tree! That’s hilarious and describes a few of my friends very well!!
      What’s funny, Joe, is that you actually say very little on your blog. You have the most amazing photos and brilliant captions on them … but otherwise you are a man of few {written} words 😉

      … and I agree. Emilio is funny, clever, and definitely the life of the party. The fact he might not realize it is actually part of the charm 🙂

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      • Joe says:

        I agree about Emilio Joanne 😀 Thank you for your kind words on my images. I might not say much on my blogs but if you ask the girls I was with all weekend in NYC they would tell you I am not one to be an observer, I’m a blabbermouth (unless I’m stoned of course) 😜 My wife tells me I should write more but I’m uncomfortable with writing being Italian. It’s tough to wave your hands and make gestures that people would understand through writing 😉

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        • Joanne Sisco says:

          ok – this made me laugh out loud only because you would too if you could see my hands waving about while I’m trying to think of the right words to type.
          Until now, I had never given this quirk any thought! Too funny 😀

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  39. Norm 2.0 says:

    Sharing, not sharing more private stuff is a very personal decision. Whatever you decide to share or not is exactly the right decision for you.
    As someone who has been through hell on the health front I hope you are both doing better and that there’s a positive prognosis in there somewhere.
    Sending positive vibes your way. Email me if you want to “talk”.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Thanks Norm – that’s a kind offer.
      This year has been particularly challenging for Gilles because he is so uber health conscious and extremely fit … sometimes to the point of being annoying 🙂
      Now to have the stuffing kicked out of him by a highly resistant infection that became a wildfire has been both humbling and frightening. Hopefully it never progresses to the same kind of life-threatening crisis that you endured … but I know you can appreciate and empathize with how emotionally exhausting the worry and stress becomes.
      Gilles and I both appreciate the positive vibes! I’d like to believe the worst is behind him now.

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  40. Heyjude says:

    So perhaps you not being in Thailand was actually a good thing after all? I don’t share much of my private life either, other than in comments which not everyone reads so I appreciate you sharing your worries with us. I do hope all IS well. ❤

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      Bang on, Jude. There have definitely been a few things over the past 10 days that have made me grateful I wasn’t half a world away. This was one of them.

      The irony is that while sharing my personal life is uncomfortable, it is something I really love about several blogs I follow. Some people are very comfortable sharing the ups and downs in their lives and it’s helped me realize that we all have so much more in common than we think. The world doesn’t feel quite so dark and scary sometimes 🙂

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  41. Glad he is okay. Feel free to use us as a sounding board any time.

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  42. You certainly hit the nail on the head. While writing is second nature, I find talking can be an effort, as opposed to listening. You have explained my obsession to keep a daily diary and blog of my travels.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      You’re right! It is an obsession! If I don’t write about it on my blog, it still gets written about in a journal. We have this need to express our thoughts and I’m so grateful that this blogging community to here for us to interact and share.

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  43. Well said. I completely get it. I do. Glad to hear G is doing fine. Hope it stays that way. xx

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  44. Tippy Gnu says:

    Sharing something personal can be tricky sometimes. But it’s also what makes us human. I’m glad you’re not a robot. I’m also glad your husband is okay.

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      You’re right – sharing personal stuff is tricky. There have been some posts I was really uncertain about and hitting the Publish button was uncomfortable. However, without exception, the comments and observations from others has been validating.

      We tend to think our battles are unique … but someone somewhere has been there and can commiserate.

      Nope – I’m not a robot and it’s not all butterflies and rainbows, but Gilles is ok 🙂

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  45. nrhatch says:

    Try not to worry . . . and get some sleep.
    Everything looks better when we are well rested and less anxious.

    Best to you both!

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  46. Ruth says:

    Joanne, I definitely understand what you mean about the pull between sharing and not sharing personal feelings – and also about writing it all down and so being able to reflect on our words before sharing – sending you both much love, hope all is well ❤

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    • Joanne Sisco says:

      I love the meme “Introverts Unite …. Separately. In Your Own Homes”. So many of us can relate to that!
      We forget that our worries, burdens, self-doubts, etc are not unique. There will always be others who can understand and feel empathy with it 🙂
      Thanks for the love … sharing it back ❤

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